Monday, August 13, 2012

Forgotten Dreams

how could i
how unlike me
how sad i feel
when i feel like this i feel fat
and when i feel like my thighs are heavy i try to lose weight
i am glad i know what to expect from myself.
NOW. CHANGE.
here goes my mind.
he is just my friend.
it's amazing how much better the heart feels now
kess expectations
cant expect conisitency.
WOoooooo
CHEck. 1 problem down.
Now, that body.
Better get back into my yoga if I keep eating like this
i should do it anyway
i want to
i want to
shit, no i don't.
i don't
I want to relax and enjoy peoples company
and noone wants to do yoga with me

i am sad
i feel feelings
once i did not
once i did not think
i enjoyed food.
now i hate food and enjoy people
at this time, my friends are not very friendly
some
some.
if i have stuff, i have no people
if i have people, i want no stuff.
if i go to college, i don't know
i need love from myself
with marco, i have forgotten that
too much love for him
once he was the crazy one
now i am crazy for him and he is almost unsure
i liked it better the other way

sherry almost moved out again
dad is confused too
he just likes to snuggle with her when she's nice
she loves him. she really does
i really could cry all day today

tears are a fools drink
they do nothing
cause laziness
and miserable feelings
and lack of pleasure
happy tears are too rare to analyze

i miss being happy
i should be
sometimes
sometimes i really am
i could die of joy
i wonder

i wonder

this song just came on. perfect
in such an unperfect world.on an awful day.
in the heart of an awful person, this was perfect

thank you God, I MISS YOU. Come back to me. Find me. I'll find me. You find me too.
I love you. I really miss you God. I miss you more than I even know. I miss you.

Bob Marley All In One Lyrics

Bend down low
Let me tell you what I know now
Bend down low
Let me tell you what I know, what I know, what I know

Long time, we no have no nice time
Doo-yoo-doo-dun-doo, yeah, think about that
Long, long, long, long time, we no have no nice time
Doo-yoo-doo-dun-doo, yeah, think about that, mm

One love, one heart
Let's get together and feel alright
One love, hear my plea, one heart
Give thanks and praise to the Lord, and I will feel alright

Simmer down, you lickin' too hot, so
Simmer down, soon you'll get dropped, so
Simmer down, man, you hear what I say?
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/b/bob+marley/all+in+one_20021655.html ]
After he
Breaks your heart
Then you'll be sad, so sad
And then your teardrops start
I tell you, then you'll know how
It hurts to be alone

Oh, what a (... feeling ...), what a feeling (... be blue)
Oh, what a feeling, oh, what a feeling
(Oh, what a feeling to be blue)
Have you ever had a lonesome feeling?

This was cause thru love and affection
This was cause thru love and affection
This was cause thru love and affection

Mm, feel them spirit
I'm gonna put it on
Feel them spirit
I'm gonna put it on

Yes, my friend
We're in the streets again
Yes, my friend
Dem set we free again ...